I want to first start off by saying that this booked moved me very deeply. I, like so many others have had family members and/or friends diagnosed with cancer and it’s never an easy thing to hear. In fact when these events have happened in my own life I was young and stupid and I never understood the importance of “community” and family bonding. My first instinct was to run, and this beautifully written book about a woman’s journey with breast cancer made me see how life is too short to run from your problems. This book in my opinion is not a romance novel, this is a love story, a real story.
Victoria Madison is living the life with her own personal design company and her sexy lawyer husband Noah when she gets the worst news of her life. She has breast cancer.
When Victoria first hears this she is obviously shocked and scared and confused. What she didn’t expect was the outpouring of support from everyone around her. Sure, she was aware that she had an amazing husband and a wonderful group of girlfriends (which I loved by the way) but she really was able to see their true colors when it got to be too rough on her, which it did.
I honestly loved all of the detail and dialogue that was put in this book. I’m not a person who has any knowledge about cancer or chemotherapy or any of the tribulations involving cancer at all, and I found myself completely fascinated by everything I read. I knew cancer treatment was tough I just never lived it through the eyes of a storyteller before. I lived through Victoria’s eyes and it was heartbreaking and scary and beautiful all at once. I was honestly mesmerized by the journey alone. Not the battle, the journey. (You’ll see)
So as Victoria embarks on this journey you get to meet so many cool people along that way. You have her Doctors who are all amazing, specifically a HOT Dr. Forrester! Kidding, they are all awesome! You have her best Friends who are saints! You will fall in love with Bobbi Jo and Jen, in fact I want my own! They are truly her backbone through this whole thing, and Noah too. They all go out of their way to make Victoria comfortable the best they can.
What you don’t see coming is something I can’t reveal do to spoiler issues but I can say this. I wasn’t happy I was livid. I just went through this whole story crying and living through the pages and then, whaaaatttttt?!?!? Oh I was so mad! So so so MAD! And then I cried again, and then laughed again. I know I sound like a basket case, but this book definitely has some twists that you won’t see coming.
By the end I was still pissed off, but better! Ha! This book was honestly something so different and beautiful and I’m not gonna lie, a little sad and aggravating at times. But it was all necessary I believe. I really REALLY enjoyed reading Victoria’s story, it’s a little different pace than you might expect but it is truly a gem. I couldn’t be happier with it, and I can’t wait for book 2!
I laid there collecting my thoughts while Noah cleaned himself up and returned with a warm washcloth to do the same for me. Once we were both cleaned up, he climbed in bed next to me, and we quietly lay there together, sorting through our unspoken thoughts.
I mulled over what just happened in my head. It started out flirty and passionate and then quickly morphed into hot and frantic. It was quite possibly one of the most intense moments we had ever shared together in bed.
I was pleased with myself and replayed everything in my head again. It was then that I realized Noah didn’t touch my left breast once. Not once. I didn’t know what to think of it and suddenly my high came crashing down. Did it affect him the way it did me? Could he feel the burn that I felt constantly in my breast when he touched it? Did he look at me as damaged already?
Noah turned me toward him and smiled. Apparently he wasn’t feeling the same emotions I was, and he looked . . . well . . . for lack of a better term . . . well fucked!
“Jesus, Victoria, what did you do to me? I don’t think I’ve ever fucked you that hard. Are you okay?”
I promptly tucked my questioning thoughts away and smiled back at him. “I’m great—that was amazing and exactly what I needed.”
In all honesty, it was what I needed, but I wasn’t prepared for the feelings I had afterward. Noah popped up out of bed and pulled on his boxers. “Why don’t you stay here and I’ll go heat up our dinner and we’ll eat it naked in bed?”
“Sure, that would be great.” I smiled as I sat up and watched him walk out of our bedroom.
I sat naked in our bed with my thoughts waging a war inside my head. Would this be the last time we had sex while I had breasts? Would he look at me like this again or be totally disgusted when my body was disfigured? Would he find me attractive anymore? Would he want me when I was damaged?
Hot tears started to stream down my checks as a soft sob left my lips. What the hell? This wasn’t me. I was strong. I didn’t cry. I wasn’t going to let this take over my life, and I couldn’t let Noah see how scared I was. Jumping off of the bed, I ran into the bathroom, quickly washed my face and tried my best to cover up the puffy and glassy-eyed look that now was present on my face. I grabbed my face lotion and cover-up and tried to hide the evidence of my mini-meltdown before Noah got back.
Some of these songs are mentioned in the book, while others gave Tori inspiration to write.
Pallidio by Silent Nick
Feels Like Home by Chantal Kreviazuk
Lying in the Hands of God by Dave Matthews Band
She Will Be Loved – Acoustic by Maroon 5
Strong Enough by Sheryl Crow
Bitch by Meredith Brooks
Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield
Three Little Birds by Bob Marley
and lots more
on Spotify . . .
Happily married and the mother of two, Tori has spent the last seven years in the non-profit world making a difference in lives of others. She is an avid reader, lover of life and a breast cancer survivor.
Writing a book was never on her radar. After a challenge from a friend to write 1,500 words the story came to life and a new opportunity to make a difference was born.
“If this story can touch the life of just one woman, then I succeeded.”
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