Well...I finally have my first J. Sterling book marked as read! I do have a few of her other books but you know how it is, too many books, too little time! The title of this book, spoke to me. There have been a few times in my life I have felt the exact same way. Dear Heart, I Hate You...Damn that heart of mine!
I fell for Cal and Jules pretty hard from the get-go. There were no tragic pasts, no hang-ups to overcome. They were two career driven individuals, they had the same mindset when it came to priorities in life. Their stubbornness to listen to their hearts was their weakness in life. They were very much made for each other, indeed! She was smooth and endearing. He was charming and understanding. I had very high hopes for them.
Absence makes the heart grow fonder they say. My heart was already pretty fond of these two before they left each other. It's hard to start a relationship when you live on opposite sides of the country. The long distance did make me want them to have each other all the more! With every chapter that passed I was eagerly awaiting for one to say "I'm coming to see you!". It took so long, yet was perfectly paced in order to build up the anticipation. If there was any way to have a perfect long distance relationship, this was it.
Then shit went down hill pretty quickly after the first visit Cal made to California. I quickly went from "Cal is the best book boyfriend ever" to "Cal needs to be strangled" in 2.4 seconds! Talk about a fucking heartless, coward. Grow some balls, Cal! Jules deserves some explanation but nooooo, instead you pull that shit?! ASSHOLE! I don't care if you think it was the right thing. It's not. You did it all wrong!
I felt so sad for Jules. Waking up every morning to nothing at all! It was hard to see how pathetic in love she was waiting for him. And it was all his fault making her feel like fool. Just thinking back to all that, makes me want to punch him for her. The anxiety and angst of their separation was really getting to me. It's time to come crawling back on your hands and knees, Cal! Then finally the inevitable kiss and make-up did come. I personally think she should have made him suffer a lot longer. But what do I know. It wasn't really my heart on the line.
Despite any anger I felt towards Cal, I still think they are a super couple. One I would love to get to know better in future books in this series. Wait...is this a series? I have no idea, but I certainly hope so. I really enjoyed the story and the writing. I really should go read my other J. Sterling books now. It really was a pretty great book!
I was currently sitting at a table with my hand on Jules’s thigh, breaking my number-one rule: No women.
Work was too damn important to me, and women were a distraction. Even the best ones seemed to turn into something else once we started dating, taking on personality traits that hadn’t been there when we first met. They were good at hiding the parts of them they didn’t want you to see until just the right time. And while I understood that most women needed things from a relationship that were seemingly normal, like my time and attention, I couldn’t give it to them.
That was what led me to formulate my life plan in the first place—too many clingy, needy women, and my realization that I wasn’t ready for any of that yet. My plan was solid and ladies didn’t factor into it; at least, not for another three or so years. Yes, I even had a timeline.
Women had their own timelines. They wanted to be married by a certain age, have two point five kids and a house by another. The only problem was my timeline and theirs tended to be off by several years. I needed two more years to make partner within my firm, another six months or so to get settled into the role, and then—and only then—could women possibly come back into the equation, depending on what else I was involved in by that point.
Coldly categorizing my life into a series of boxes I wanted to check off wasn’t a romantic notion, but my career had nothing to do with romance and everything to do with reality. I wanted to be firmly rooted in it before allowing myself to be distracted by a relationship.
But right now, with my hand touching Jules’s thigh, my brain wasn’t the least bit involved, and I wasn’t sure what was real at this point. She was real. Her long blond hair and fierce green eyes, those were real.
I got fired from my last job.
I know you're sitting there thinking, "Jenn, how could anyone in their right mind fire someone like you?" And I'd love to give you a good reason, but the truth is that sometimes being all sorts of awesome isn't fun for other people. They don't always tend to like it. lol
So I picked my pride off the floor, bought a laptop and started writing my first book. And you know what I realized? Writing stories that meant something to me was a million times better than working my ass off for someone who didn't really care about anything other than the bottom line.
My soul has never felt more satisfied.
My heart has never been more full.
I've never worked so hard in my life, but I love every second of it. I truly do.
It is SO worth it.
All of it.
The journey it took to get to this point- I wouldn't change a thing.
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