“I want you to smile again too. It’s in there, Brand. I saw it tonight. When you had the ball and then when we were talking to my dad.”
I don’t know if it’s the right thing to do but it’s the only thing I can do. Even if I wanted to, I couldn’t stop myself. I step toward Alec and slide my free hand around the back of his neck. It only takes a gentle tug to bring him even closer, his hand moving to the same place on me that mine rests on him.
Alec closes his eyes and drops his forehead to mine. Neither of us talk, and I wonder if he’s just feeling the way I am. It’s that same rush that sweeps through me every time I touch him, my nerve endings like live wires, sparking with electricity. Everything inside me screams that this is right. He’s right. How can anyone not understand this? How can I fight us?
*I received an ARC via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.*
I have been desperate to read this book ever since Nyrae Dawn announced she was writing it. I have started reading more m/m romances but I had yet to find the kind of book I was looking for. Most of the books I read and enjoyed were mostly of older men, comfortable in their sexuality and having less pressure on them to fit a certain mould. I am a huge fan of Nyrae Dawn's New Adult books so having her write a romance between two young male characters was a perfect fit and I am so glad I wasn't disappointed. Rush was everything I hoped it would be and everything I knew it could be.
I liked the way in which the story began, Alec and Brandon already had a history, and this was recalled in the prologue and done in such a way that I didn't feel I missed any of their back-story. For the past four summers Alec and Brandon have had a back and forth relationship, but always ending when Brandon had to go back home. During their last summer together, Brandon makes a decision he soon regrets. He ends it once and for all with Alec. Being a gay football player is too much pressure Brandon isn't ready for and with a heavy heart he calls things off. However, with feelings so strong for each other, it's only a matter of time before Alec and Brandon are in each other's lives again.
I knew Rush would be an emotional story, and I expected tender moments between Alec and Brandon, what surprised me was how hot it was! I loved the way Alec and Brandon were both discovering each other for the first time, the physical side of their relationship was portrayed realistically. There was the right balance between sexual tension, suspense and intimate scenes. Nyrae gave just enough at the right times and pulled back at others. I thought it was very well written.
I liked both Alec and Brandon's characters individually and together. They had their own strengths and supported each other when they needed it. Brandon struggled with his football career and the attitude of his team mates, whilst Alec feared the reaction of his bigoted father. Both boys were very relatable and I liked many of the supporting characters like Nate, Charlie and Brandon's parents. Now I need to read Charlie and Nate's story in Four Summers.
I don't want to give too much away as it's best to read it for yourself, what I will say is Alec and Brandon's journey was real, their reactions, thoughts and feelings were natural and believable, even the actions and attitudes of those around them were real too. Yes, there were times when I wanted to shake a few people and shout at them for saying things or acting a certain way but sadly, that's reality and we don't live in a world of true acceptance and it saddens me to think we never will. All I can be sure of is my own attitude and by reading this story I value the close relationship I have with my own gay bffs and it makes me appreciate the life they are able to live, surrounded by loved ones who are accepting of them and supportive no matter what.
The storyline wasn't as angst filled as I thought it would be, I was getting myself worked up as the book was approaching the elusive 80% mark, if anything was going to happen that would be the time for it. The story could have taken many drama-filled paths and wild theories were running through my head, I felt so protective of Brandon and Alec; I didn't want anything bad to happen to them. The drama was on the low side due to the story being character driven and this worked perfectly, Brandon and Alec's journey was real and one many young teenagers/new adults can relate to.
I read Rush in a matter of hours and I was determined not to stop until I had finished, it's been a while since a book has had that affect on me. I've been searching for a story like this for a long time. One that takes us to the heart of the struggle, a real depiction of struggling with whom you want to be and who you feel you should be. I hope this book falls into the lap of anyone that is fighting this battle daily, of anyone who wants to speak out but doesn't have the strength or support to do so yet. By reading this book, it may not change their life today but it will certainly give them something to work towards for the future. It will give them hope.
Nyrae Dawn was the best person to tell this story, Alec and Brandon's fate was in safe hands and Nyrae done them justice. I'm glad this book will soon be out in the mainstream and I cross my fingers that it hits every chart imaginable as it is well and truly deserved.
My heart will always love Colt, Adrian and Maddox that little bit more, they were the reason I fell in love with Nyrae Dawn and her writing but Alec and Brandon are not far behind at all. There is so much heart, passion and emotion packed into this story. It has truly cemented my love for Nyrae and the reason she is one of my top five authors. Not only were Alec and Brandon putting their lives and hearts on the line but also so was Nyrae as she put out this story. I'm forever thankful that she had the courage to do so. Rush was a great book and it will be a story I encourage my son to read when he grows up, no matter his orientation. This book is for anyone, the message is clear; it's perfectly okay to be who you are but only you can make that decision to live the you deserve.
Coming of Age has never had a better definition than the one captured within the pages of Rush. I can't recommend this book enough, it had everything I was looking for and more. My highlighter was going crazy, there are so many beautiful words, phrases and messages of encouragement in this story and I really hope it touches many people like it did me.
If you are a fan of New Adult and even if m/m romance isn't usually a genre you read, I urge you to try Rush today, I guarantee you won't be disappointed.
"I'm not strong enough to be with him, but can't handle walking away either."
"I don't even know who I am," "It doesn't matter. We know who we are together."
"No matter what anyone thinks, it doesn't feel wrong. It feels better. He makes me better."
"It's the same rush that sweeps through me every time I touch him, my nerve endings like live wires, sparking with electricity. Everything inside me screams that this is right. He's right. How can anyone not understand this? How can I fight us?"
"Alec hisses and I wrap my palm around him, hot and hard. My body's screaming at mee, finally, finally, I'm being true to what I want."
"It's like the words are locked inside me and even I don't know how to find the key. I don't know how to be gay and play ball."
"It might not be this month or next month but one day you'll be ready. I know it. I couldn't love you like I do if I didn't believe that."
"We can make this work and one day it'll all be okay. We'll find a way to make it okay. One step at a time."
"Gay? I don't understand, Brandon" Mom's eyes are already getting glassy. Dad's are directly on me. "I think it's pretty self-explanatory honey."
"Loving Alec helped me decide who I want to be. That's all I ever had to do, was decide who that was. It's always been my choice."
Writing has always been Nyrae Dawn's passion. Nyrae gravitates toward character-driven stories. She loves going on emotional journeys with characters whether it be reading or writing. And yes, she's a total romantic at heart and proud.
Nyrae resides in sunny Southern California with her husband (who still makes her swoon) and her two awesome kids.
When she's not with her family, you can be pretty sure you'll find her with a book in her hand or her laptop and an open document in front of her. Nyrae also writes adult romance under the name Kelley Vitollo.
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Title: Falling From The Sky
Author: Nikki Godwin
Date of Publication: February 21, 2014
Genre: LGBT contemporary YA
He reaches an arm out from under the towel and grasps my forearm. He pulls me closer to him, and everything in my brain says to fight him off, but my body screams out for him to just hold me close to him and not let me go. His other hand brushes over my bare shoulder, and I glance toward the sky to avoid eye contact with him. I see the towel fall from his shoulder out of the corner of my eye, and I know he’s inches away from pulling his bare chest against mine.
In this second of almost touching, I realize that falling for Micah – or any guy for that matter – will be a thousand times worse than falling from the sky. I have a girlfriend, and never in my life have I been attracted to a guy. At least not before now. No one has ever gotten to me like Micah does. His hands run along my arms, and I take the chicken way out.
“Will you jump with me?” I spit the words out quicker than I process them in my head.
Micah pulls back and inhales deeply. He’s not smiling with excitement or dragging me to the top of the bridge. He just stares at me with those sad puppy dog eyes filled with disappointment. He almost had me, and he knows it. That’s the point of a toxic green elephant – everyone sees it, but no one talks about it. However, he’s not talking at all, and the hurt in his eyes actually hurts me in return.
I look back to the bridge so if those brown eyes of his start pouring, I won’t see the raindrops. His hands leave my arms, and he steps beside me. He’s in my peripherals, but I don’t dare turn my head. It looks like he’s staring at the bridge, which means he’s either debating jumping with me or he’s refusing to look at me for the same reasons I won’t look at him.
“You sure you’re brave enough?” he asks.
I nod, even if he isn’t looking. “Yeah. As long as I don’t have to jump alone,” I say.
“If you jump, I jump,” he replies.
I really wish this hadn’t made me laugh. “Did you like Titanic?”
He laughs too, and I feel a world better. “I admit, I did…except for when Jack died. I mean, I get that it kind of made the movie, but I prefer happy endings.”
Hopefully this falling from the sky experience will have a happy ending for me, as in not smashing my head against a rock or drowning or being eaten by an alligator. Now is a good time to let my “what if” scenarios play out, and it’s an even better time to talk myself out of this.
I look over at Micah to suggest my many wild reasons on why I shouldn’t jump, but he’s smiling. Damn it. Why does he have to smile and actually want to jump off a bridge?
Nikki Godwin is a Young Adult/New Adult author. She is a city girl who can't live without Mountain Dew, black eyeliner, Hawthorne Heights, and candles from Bath & Body Works. When not writing, she's not-so-secretly stalking her favorite bands. She may or may not completely love One Direction.