"Love isn't something you hide from. Love isn't something you trade in. Love is a priority. It's the one thing in people's lives that make them want to live. It's the one thing in my life that's kept me breathing."
*I received an ARC in exchange for an honest review.*
I really enjoyed book one, In The Air and wanted to read Kingsley's story. She was closed off in book one and it was obvious she was hiding a dark past, I didn't realise just how dark and deep it went.
Kingsley has been 'dating' Wren for 9 months, although Kingsley refuses to label their relationship, it's safer that way as she vowed never to fall in love again but Kingsley underestimated Wren's feelings for her and this guy was determined not to give her up without a fight. Wren wouldn't stop until each and every secret of Kingsley's was bared to him.
The book was split into past and present chapters, I liked this format at the beginning, as Kingsley found it difficult to open up to Wren, we got to delve into her past and just find out what she was hiding. Kingsley suffered a harrowing past, not one any child should endure. The tough scenes were really well written and even though some tough events were only alluded to, the affect was still the same and it was heartbreaking to read. Kingsley was abused in her foster home yet it was the constant fear she lived in that forced her mouth closed. One ray of light in the form of Porter made Kingsley's life bearable but even then, it wasn't long before Porter lost his shine.
I really liked Kingsley's character, you couldn't help but love her. I liked the fact she was different, the cover of this book is a perfect image and I wish we read more heroines like her. Kingsley had a horrible childhood yet she still managed to be a kind hearted, sincere person. It was the small things, like keeping track of how many days she loved Porter, or the way in which she got excited over tasting a cupcake that really brought out her endearing side and highlighted just how young and innocent Kingsley really was. Porter started to change and Kingsley knew within herself she wasn't happy with drinking or partying but she was so desperate for a love that didn't hurt her, that she turned the other cheek and carried on regardless. All this took place when Kingsley was 13-14 so it was such a young age, for any child to experience what she did. My heart ached for her at times.
When the book began Kingsley and Wren's relationship was already established and even though we knew they got together in book one, I would have liked to read about the early stages of their relationship, for Kingsley to let Wren in that far for a length of time, I couldn't help but want to read about their beginning. Each chapter left on an important note, leaving you desperate to read on, I must admit there were a few times I wanted to just skip to the next future chapter as I really wanted to know what was happening with Kingsley and Wren.
I really enjoyed the author's writing in this book, it has grown so much and the end result is a well written, raw, gritty new adult book. Some of the passages were beautifully written, most of my quotes are from Kingsley describing her love for Porter and even though I hugely disliked Porter, I loved the way Kingsley's feelings were described, it was real and evocative. This was Kingsley's story. It isn't your typical romance and yes perhaps I wanted more time between her and Wren and to enjoy their relationship but this was about Kingsley and her journey of confronting her past leaving her free to live her future.
I'm not going to lie, I almost had a heart attack at 98% thinking there was going to be a cliffhanger, fear not there isn't although the ending was kind of abrupt. There was no fluffy epilogue or mushy future scenes but then this is Kingsley we are talking about ;-) the ending was significant and just as it should be.
In Control is an engrossing read with great characterisation. I recommend you check this one out today.
"For years, I blamed myself for falling for Porter. For years, I refused to let myself fall for anyone else. And then Wren came along and changed everything."
"I had been shattered a long time ago, and the shards of my former self were so sharp, nothing else could ever harm me."
"Most of all, I just wanted to call him mine because I never had anything of my own."
"He turned and said the one thing that could pierce through the layers of concrete surrounding my heart. "I love you." Three Words. Eight letters. One single tear escaping as the concrete slowly chipped away."
"Not only was his joy contagious, but it also gave me promise that maybe my heart could be repaired."
"I wanted to live on his lips. Build a house, raise a family, and someday die, all while cushioned against his skin."
"I hoped that if there was a genie who made birthday wishes come true, he'd hear mine and award me with a love that would never abandon me."
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